The Worst Week I’ve Had In A While…

Weekly Reflection 04/13• 04/19 2026

Monday

**Kenzy’s Bridal Portraits**

I was off of work to shoot Kenzy’s bridal portraits at her venue. I had taken the whole day off because we weren’t 100% set on a time when I requested the PTO. We were waiting to hear back from the venue.

Since we ultimately scheduled the shoot for 4PM, I had a lot of free time in the morning.

The first thing I did was take Bean to the vet for his check up. It went great! <3

They said he is a very healthy 2-3 week old kitten (he doesn’t have teeth like I thought he did, just the cutest little baby gums).

Kenzy’s shoot was like a dream. She is STUNNING (lucky me she’s my cousin so I get to do some photos lol) and her dress…holy cow. If I had found her dress when I chose mine, it would’ve been a tough call and I’ve never said that about any other dress I’ve seen…and I’ve been to a lot of weddings…

Tuesday – Thursday

**Rest in Peace sweet Bean**

It’s crazy to look back at what I wrote on Monday after the horrible week it has been.

It is the end of the week and I haven’t cared to write or do anything whatsoever.

It has been the worst week I have had in a very, very long time.

Bean didn’t make it…

I have been heartbroken and I will miss him forever. He was only 2.5 weeks old. He got Fading Kitten Syndrome one night out of nowhere. I took him to the vert twice a day, every day. I did everything I absolutely could to save him and so did the vet, but it wasn’t enough…

I had let Fallon stay home from school Thursday to say goodbye to him, just in case, and I let her stay home Friday because it was a very sad day.

He passed away on Thursday night and I don’t even want to say anything more about it because it is a memory I wish I could forget.

It has been devastating for me and Fallon. I cried nonstop for 48 hours and I still have a hard time getting through the day. I had really thought that if I kept trying and praying, he would make it…

That just wasn’t God’s plan for Bean…and it crushes me. It always will.

Friday

**Axel Segar, Not A Replacement, But Another New Family Member**

Jonny did get home Friday night which was very needed. Fallon was hysterical all Thursday night and so was I. Jonny keeps us calm.

After a lot of encouragement from my parents (because it wasn’t even a consideration for me) they convinced us to look for another kitten. For Fallon’s sake and healing of her broken heart. We did some research, reached out to some people around our area, and found another kitten that she chose to adopt. I wasn’t ready so soon after Bean, I was neutral, but my parents recently lost a cat of their own and said that getting a new kitten (pretty much right away) helped them heal. Fallon definitely needed it. It was a dark couple of days.

She did pick the most beautiful cat I’ve ever seen.

He isn’t Bean, but honestly, it makes me feel better that he is SO different from Bean because I didn’t want to feel like we are replacing him.

Here is a picture of our 10 week old kitten, Axel:

And here is a picture of his dad that the breeders sent to me after we picked him. They said he looks most like the dad out of the 15 kittens they had from the recent 3 litters and the dad is also one of the most beautiful cats I’ve ever seen. I don’t even know if they’re “cute”…they are gorgeous lol.

His paws are HUGE and he is a Maine Coon/Persian mix, so he will probably be really big.

He is the age of kitten that Fallon had hoped for before Bean because he can already play and acts rotten…in the best way.

Saturday

We went to my parents to hang out for a bit, but we spent most of the day hanging out with Axel and Jonny at home. I still wasn’t in a socaializing mood, I missed Bean too much and cried on and off.

Sunday

**Allye’s Maternity/Mother’s Day/Family Portrait Shoot**

Sunday was super chill as well, we spent time with Axel and Jonny grabbed some groceries and got his stuff ready to leave again Monday.

Axel has grown on me, he’s literally a silver cotton ball.

Pip is NOT growing on Axel. I hope they start to get along. It has only been a couple of days at this point.

I did do my friends maternity/Mother’s Day/family photos at a beautiful park during sunset and, wow, it was an incredible shoot. They are a stunning family and the sunset was perfect. Couldn’t have gone better.

Here’s to next week looking up…

• Weekly Highlight: Brining Axel home
• Weekly Rating: 5/10. I’m a bit numb after losing Bean.
• Goal Progress? Yes, progress was made towards my goals this week. Nothing big, but I blogged through the sorrow. Normally I’d just stop everything.